I feel like I have to write something here and I want to write something, although I have no idea what to write... Yet I'm doing this anyway (as if I had nothing better to do).
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Okay, after pondering about this over the night (and day) I came to the conclusion that maybe I could start by telling that I decided to remove the last post for... personal reasons (:D) and it definitely made me feel a lot more comfortable and at ease. But there were some things that I could perhaps say again:
1. I can't believe this is really my life I'm living and not someone else's, and I can't believe all these things are really happening and not just a dream. Or well, you can't really be sure.... but let's not get all philosophical now.
2. It's so weird. Unbelievable. All my dreams, hopes, wishes, prayers for the beginning of the university have come true. I have been able to talk to the people I wanted to and now they are my friends. And I got other friends as well. And everyone is so nice. I don't have to be so scared anymore. Of what I do, that I exist, of other people. I seriously can't believe this is all happening, that all these things have really happened. To me. Me. I'm starting to get scared something bad, something really bad and awful and horrible is going to happen. Will happen. I don't want that. I just want to be happy, for once, for a longer time. This has already been an extraordinary long happy period and time of my life. I don't want it to end.
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Those were basically the beginning and the end of the post (=the most important things?). Those words were written approximately a month ago and I still do agree with them.
I could probably continue writing about the same 'subject' but right now my thoughts aren't very clear about it and on the other hand I just don't feel like it. So instead, have some (bad) pictures!
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| Sofa-bed! |
I may have been too much of a materialist after I moved here...:
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| Mikko Vaismaa Stand Up dvd, Studio Ghibli's Pom Poko, Dragon Age Origins (PC game) Kissojen valtakunta (=The Cat Returns), Love & Other Disasters, Fahrenheit (Indigo Prophecy, PC game) |
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| Zen Cafe - Jättiläinen, Bullet for My Valentine - Temper Temper, Kontrol - Lihaa ja verta From First to Last - Throne to the Wolves, Never Shout Never - Time Travel, Blackmore's Night - Under a Violet Moon |
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| A Day to Remember - What Separates Me From You, Bullet for My Valentine - Fever BMTH - Sempiternal, All Time Low - Don't Panic, Rammstein - Reise, Reise |
And I have ordered more, Never Shout Never - Harmony, The Notebook (dvd) and Assassin's Creed 3 should come sometime in the near future. Without even noticing it, I now have all albums by BFMV. And not many are left of Rammstein's albums to be bought. Yay. :) Also, even though I still have many unread books I have ordered two more! The Perks of Being a Wallflower (Stephen Chbosky) and Never Let Me Go (Kazuo Ishiguro).
But yeahhh I should go to bed, or rather stop writing and continue watching a Youtube video and try not to stress too much about tomorrow (...today) and finally try to go to sleep. Let's end this on a happier note, though, with the help of Skillet:
Skillet - Good to be Alive <3
PS. Sorry about the randomness.
